Not Enough

I...
looked into the water
and saw a reflection...
but it wasnt mine...
this person I saw...
was changed...and the eyes...
were not kind...

Bitter lines were depicted
there...right above the peak
of greying hair...

I looked again...
afraid of what I had seen
there was no way...
this person I saw
could be me...
smiling,
used to be my trade mark
when I had...
a lighter heart.
and life had not shown me
how ugly...it could be.

I am ashamed that I have
somehow come undone...
reflecting back the
coldness of this place...

I...
am ready to be like
somebody I used to know
long ago...
when my laughter was contagious.
and I had the patent on
just...being.
simple as breathing...then
I didnt have any expectations
Waking up...
was enough for me...
Now I wonder...
when did just breathing
become...
Not Enough.