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I couldn't tell you why i always ran away from my fears, maybe this time i will walk hand in hand with death and spit in his face that would show him whose boss. I mean how hard could it be to just tell that one person how i truly felt? fine you got me i wasn't ever going to tell her, but shit she was just two doors down, and i was still dateless for prom, and i wasn't going to go alone; i mean hell only the weird creepy stalker guys went alone. "Hi" that was about all i could mutter out loud, and even that sounded pretty shitty in my head. Since i wasn't the type of guy to win prom king, i was going to have to find a way to really impress her, i mean i have to make her feel like she's the only living girl on earth, it was either her or forever alone.
     "Want to be my date?" i asked myself looking into my bathroom mirror, my reflection seemed dazed and out of touch with reality, and most people would laugh if i told them the girl i was going to ask to prom. i had only one nerdy guy friend, who spent all his time adding numbers in his head, and sometimes Ned would write formulas on a piece of paper and then tape it to his wall, now i'm not the judging type of person one bit, but i even found that habit to be a bit biazzre. "Do you think i should ask Ashley to prom?" i asked Ned as i watched him write down some numbers, "Which Ashley if i may ask?" i wanted to lie just so i could hear the answer that i wanted, but it just slipped from my mouth, "Moore" and as soon as i said that i could see was the look that would haunt me forever and it said don't even bother.
     "Why would you want to ask her of all the girls in this school? she seems like the most work and maintance, there are so many girls in this school that are in our league, i mean why not ask out Mary castrol? or Jenny Thomason? but instead you want Ashley Moore? i think you are better off going else where in my own oponion. But it is ultimately up to what you want, and you can't let anybody stand in your way." I knew deep down that everything that Ned said was completely true, but something about Ashley drove me wild and even right now i couldn't quite figure it out.
     Shattered Heights was the name of my high school, and it was built in 1955, which meant that it was very old and creepy. I still enjoy every second of it, but since i was a senior this year, i was going to miss everything. I might not have any friends besides Ned, but i was still happy with my senior year so far. "Did you finish your math homework?" Ashley asked me with a pitty little smile on her face, and i found it hard to resist. "Yeah i believe so, do you need it?" i asked as i went through my backpack until i found it inside my history text book, "yeah i couldn't understand a few problems". I handed her my paper and smiled really big and found it almost impossiable to even speak around her, but i had to make my move before it was too late; so i asked her to prom. "Are you going to pr...om? wait i mean are you going with anyone?" i tried my hardest to avoid looking at anything other than her eyes, they were the color of a nice ocean blue, and her hair a perfect blend of brown and blonde; she was almost too perfect, actually she was an angel so she was perfect.
     That was actually the first time in two years that i have ever really talked to Ashley for more than two words, i always thought that maybe she hated me, or that she felt that it was below her to even look my way. But now i can at least say we talked for two minutes, sadly that will probably be the record that never gets broken. "yeah i'm going to prom, it was kind of funny that you brought it up, i'm not going with anyone right now, but it would be nice to go with someone; i would hate going alone. But i'm sure by now everybody has a date except me, i mean it's only a week away." Ashley said with sad puppy dog eyes, which she knew no man could resist and this was my one chance to really impress her, maybe we could have something way past prom? "I'm not going with anyone either if that makes you feel better?" i said as she just shook her head no, "i find this hard for me to do, i'm not sure why? but it's almost impossiable, i will give it my best try. Ashley will you go to pr...om with me?" i started stuttering as the words prom and me came out of my mouth, i was almost certain that the answer was no, i mean why would she go with a fat guy like me? "yes i'll go with you Adam."
     I stood there motionless my body was in complete shock, i couldn't believe that the word yes would ever come out of her mouth when it dealt with me, don't get me wrong i was very excited; but now a new feeling burst into my body and i became nervous. What was i going to wear? How was i going to pick her up with no car? i mean i never done this stuff before, "pick me up at six okay?" Ashley said with a big smile on her face, how was i going to tell her i had no car? it's bad enough that i had no job for a tux, nor did i have the money for a car. I watched as Ashley waved goodbye and started walking down the hall, at first i wasn't going to tell her; but then that thing called nervousness settled in and i had too. "Ashley wait" i ran to where she stood and i was just hoping that she wouldn't get mad and decide to change her mind. "I don't have a car." Ashley seemed a little disapointted at first, but i could tell that wouldn't change her mind completely. "That's fine i'll get my daddy to get us a limo." I almost forgot to mention that Ashley's parents were very wealthy, and that will come in handy sometimes. "So i guess i will be picking you up at six."
     "What did Ashley say?" Ned asked as he got up from his desk and grabbed his backpack from the classroom floor and tossed it over his shoulder. "She said that she would go with me, and pick me up in a limo." I could tell that Ned thought that was a bit strange, and honestly i did too but maybe we were meant to be? but i highly doubt that. "I may not be a rocket sciencist, but shouldn't the guy be picking up the girl? In his own car? Maybe i'm just old school, but i'm pretty sure that's how dates work; although i never been on one before so i could be wrong." I laughed and put one arm on my friend's shoulder, "you got to do what you can to get her to say yes, it's all about playing the game; if i play like i don't care about her then she will want me that much more, if i tell her i have no car then she's going to want to pick me up that much more." Ned brushed my arm off his shoulder, and looked at me as if i had just said the stupidest thing ever, and maybe i did? But all i knew was that i had a date with Ashley, and prom was going to be much better than i ever thought possible.
     What should i wear? i wondered as i went through my flithy closet, i knew i needed to find a tux, but i needed nice slacks and a tie; but coming from a poor family we never had the luxary to just buy anything that we wanted, i was even wearing the same three pairs of clothes for two years stright. Although Ned was a huge nerd i often found myself digging in his closet and take clothes with his permission of course, he was a much better dresser than i was; but that isn't saying much at all. "Make sure to dry clean those slacks before you wear them to prom, you don't want to look like crap on the big day." I just grabbed the black slacks from Ned's hands and placed them neatly and tightly in the bottom shelf of my closet. "Yeah i'll have to write a reminder so i don't forget." i could tell that Ned was thinking why i was even going to prom in the first place, he seemed to know me better than i knew myself, prom wasn't something i really actually thought much about until recently, and now that Ashley said yes it was something i can't stop myself from thinking about.
     I would be lying if i told you that i had been talking to ashley all week long, but i would also be lying if i told you that i wasn't nervous about the big day coming up, i had never even thought much about prom until the day i asked Ashley Moore, and i was very shy when it came to females. It took all my courage to ask her to prom, and now just days away i was getting more and more nervous by the second. Ned was not much of a social person not that i am, but he never went out and socialize at all. "It's too hot outside" that was his favorite excuse of all time. Although it was often too hot outside that was still no excuse, i mean how can anybody spend their whole life hidden in their room, waiting for the next day to past them by. "Yes" i heard ashley's voice repeat in my head, and the sound of her voice i just couldn't get out. I just wanted everything to go right,and that hardly was ever the case.
     The big night was finally here, and "yes i did remember to dry clean my suit thank you very much Ned". I always laughed in my head, whenever Ned asked me if i did something, it was like he never fully believes that i'm smart enough to remember on my own. "i'm just making sure in case you forgot, i mean you usually do forget am i right?" i just smiled as i took the suit out of his closet, and laid it neatly on his bed. "Sometimes i do forget, but i think that everybody forgets from time to time." Ned patted me on the back and asked, "Are you sure you want to do this? i just have this bad, bad feeling" i just took his hand off me and kept on smiling back at him, "i will admit that i am nervous i am very, very nervous but this is something that i have dreamed of all my life, and i really really want this night to go perfect." I could tell that Ned was done trying to get me to change my mind, i understand where he's coming from, but as a friend he should just be happy for me, and not jealous just because nobody wanted to go with him. "Well i hope you have a blast and kill it on the dancefloor." i just gave Ned a high five and walked into the bathroom just waiting for the start of a perfect, delightful evening that was still to come.
     The clock on my wall was ticking ever so slowly, and it felt like the moment would never come. I was dressed very nicely, and smelling very clean. I was becoming even more nervous by the second, i mean what would we even talk about on the way there? would we even be talking at all? Every emotion was starting to show in my facial expressions, one second i was smiling and the next second i was almost in tears of even the thought that my wildest fantasty was coming true, i was going to prom with Ashley Moore. She was not only beautiful, but one of the most popular girls in school. I felt my hands shaking and my face sweating in disbelief of reality. I heard a loud honk outside my house, and saw with my own eyes the large limo that awaited outside my yawn with the most beautiful woman waiting for me.
     "Hello" i could barely say that one word as i turned pink, and i guess it was more like a whisper; as she could barely hear me. "How are you Adam?" Ashley asked as she moved over and grabbed my hand and sat me next to her, "i am feeling so amazing right now, i mean this is like a dream come true." i said as ashley kept on holding my hand, and i wasn't sure what i was suppose to do; as i was never in this position before. "what's a dream come true?" Ashley asked smiling with her perfect white teeth, and beautiful long blonde hair. "This whole night just being next to you, and holding your hand it's everything i could ever hope or pray for." I could tell that Ashley was in awe of what i just said, and i was hoping that my sweetness would win her heart. "I'm so honored that i am everything you ever dream of, that is very sweet of you Adam." I was just smiling and holding the hand of the girl of my dreams.
     The trip to the school seemed to take longer than usual, but it was well worth the wait just being next to her, and hearing her voice ringed in my ears like wedding bells. The limo stopped and the door next to me opened and i saw a huge crowd of people waiting at the front door. I thanked the driver and then held the door open for Ashley, she looked more than just stunning in her white dress, white might be a plain color but it looked amazing on her. I have never been more in love with anybody as i was with her, but i guess it doesn't count much since i have never really been in love. "Hey Ashley" a group of jocks yelled from the other side of the crowd, Ashley blushed as they made their way over and i knew i stood no chance against them. "Hey" Ashley replied back as the guys all started to hug, and look her up and down like damn animals; these guys were just animals and it made me sick. "How are you guys doing?" i asked the guys who all ignored me, but i wasn't suprise at all; i was actually used to being a ghost in their eyes. "This is Adam" Ashley said as she put her arms around me, "he's my date" the guys all had smirks on their faces, "never thought you would sink this low Ashley" Eddie said smiling at me, he was the toughest and meanest football player to ever play for Shattered Heights. "Good luck" Eddie whispered in my ear as the guys shoulder pushed me aside.
     The whole place was packed with almost every senior, which the class was about 1200 people in just one grade. Our school was growing more every year, and that was making it even harder just to walk from class to class with only five mintues between class periods. There were so many girls here tonight, but i only wanted one girl and she was standing right next to me. "Wow i always dreamed of this night, and now it's finally here." Ashley said with a wide smile on her face, "i'm glad that i'm the one to spend this night with you, this is my dream as well." We both held hands as we walked inside the school, the first thing you notice was how loud the music was blaring, and the loud chatter coming from every corner of the room. There was hardly any room to move, and that was going to make it almost impossiable to dance. "Do you like to dance?" Ashley asked as she started to grab my hand, and then motion me to twirl her around; "i'm not the best, but i do enjoy a good dance from time to time." Ashley had that look, which showed that she hardly believed me at all. "We will have to see about that, i used to be into tap dance; but now i hardly have the time after homework and cheerleading." As soon as she said that a slow jam, which i was unfamilar with started playing and that was the second that i realized i couldn't slow dance at all.
     We moved from left to right then back to the left, and i had noticed that my legs were a little shaky, but i didn't feel nervous i swear, it was the strangest thing that i had ever seen before. "Why are you shaking?" Ashley asked smiling, "are you nervous? aww that is so adorable." I started to turn pink and blush, but i found it hard to say anything. "n...o, no" i stuttered and that was the first time i had stuttered in a very long time.
     There was this long silence after that akward stutter, and i was praying that something would be said before the song ended. But nothing could change the fact that i had just stuttered, and it seemed that Ashley was through talking to me. "I think it's cute" Ashley finally forced herself to speak, and it was something that after all the years i was just used too. "What's cute?" i asked starting to turn pink again, but i wasn't sure if what she was about to say was even believable. "I think it's cute that you find me so attractive that you start to stutter around me, it makes me feel very pretty." I tried my hardest not to blush anymore, but i found it almost impossiable around Ashley. The next song that came on was another slow song, i grabbed her hand as we made our way to the dancefloor; this time i tried to lead the way as we moved left to right ever so slowly. "are you ready?" Princiable Tina Chapin asked the students, "yes" the whole crowd cheered, "lets choose the prom king and queen." Everybody was cheering even louder now.
     "Here are the choices for prom queen Megan Riley" a very pretty varsity cheerleader walked up the stairs, and onto the stage; everybody cheered for her as she made her way to the very far left of the stage. "Bailey Chapin" of course the princeable's daughter always seemed to make it as prom queen, i was kind of nervous that maybe Ashley wouldn't be chosen; but i was again wrong as always. "Ashley moore" i cheered the loudest of everybody, but there was this different kind of thick air that entered the room as soon as her name was called. "The results are in and the prom Queen for this year at Shattered Heights is Ashley Moore." I cheered so loud and proud, i wasn't even sure if i was ever this excited during a school dance ever; but i sure was glad that Ashley was crowned prom queen.
     Ashley was all alone in center stage, and now was the moment of truth who would be her prom king; i was basically an outcast so i knew it wouldn't be me. They would never say Adam Lowe and if they did i would freak out. "Now here are the choices for prom king Jarrett Graham." A blonde hair blue eye young man walked across the stage, he was the class clown but everybody admired the kid without his pranks the school year would of been very dull. "Cameron Toms" All the girls really like him, and it seemed like he would win for sure but you never know. "Adam Long" i stood there frozen and there was this nerve that struck my spine, i found it very hard to even try and move. I walked up to the stage, and everybody was watching me closely i think everybody was as shocked as me. "The prom king for this year at Shattered Heights is Adam Long." I was still in shock that not only did i make it on the top three, but i also won the whole thing. Everybody left the stage except Ashley and me, the crown was placed on my head. There was butterflies in my stomach or i was about to throw up; either way i was very nervous. "Stand next to each other so we can take pictures" Tina Smiled at the both of us, everybody was smiling as Ashley gave me a kiss on the cheek "i'm sorry Adam" Ashley said as she started to walk away.
     I was alone on the stage, i was nervous and would do anything to change what was about to happen; there was a bucket filled with pig blood hanging from the roof, and i could see the smile inside their frowns, and i could hear laughter inside the cries. There was pig blood that covered my entire body, i could smell death upon me; yet there was nothing that i could do to change what just happened. Everybody was laughing and pointing at me, there was this anger that took over my body, and i felt as hot as the sun. I saw Ned as he walked behind me and put his hand on my shoulder, "i tried to warn you buddy didn't i? i told you don't go to prom with Ashley Moore, but you didn't listen to me did you? i had this whole night planned out for years now, i knew if i could get Ashley to take you to prom that you couldn't say no." I couldn't believe that Ned my only friend was behind this whole thing. "Why did you do it?" i yelled as i got in his face. "Because i'm tired of you always whining about how you have no friends, you always bitch about everything and i had to show you why." I was through talking to Ned, how could anybody call themself a friend after something like this? "Adam still wets the bed" Ned said in a funny voice, everybody started laughing and chanting "wet the bed, wet the bed, wet the bed." i couldn't take any of this nonsense any longer.
     "Stop it" i screamed at the top of my lungs, the pig blood dripped through my face, and made it's way to the floor. "hey calm down man, there is no reason to get upset wet pants; i mean you don't have to cry like a five year old girl." i wiped the blood off my face, and i was ready to explode; but i wasn't that type of person. I tried my hardest to keep my nerves down, but i wasn't sure how much longer i could keep it inside. "I can't believe you did this to me Ned" i whispered in his ear trying to make sure nobody else knew what i was telling him. Ned pushed me away from him, "dude stop getting close to me, hey Ashley Moore come over here." Ned was staring hard at her as most guys did, she made her way in front of him. "yes?" Ashley asked with a big smile across her face, "there is something i need to do for my boy Adam over here." I watched as Ned leaned over and gave Ashley a big kiss on the lips as he was staring back at me, i wasn't completely sure what was the point of this. This was making my blood pressure rise beyond anything i have ever witnessed, i couldn't believe that my only friend would stab me in the back, i mean i have known him for years; and this is how he treats me? I just can't believe this right now, i am beyond shocked and pissed beyond belief.
     I could see my hands tightly wrapped around Ned's tiny neck, and i could see myself just taking the breathe right out of his lungs. This is not how friends treat each other, i ran off the stage, and ran out the front door.It took me about twenty or so minutes but i ran all the way back home, i tried to calm myself down and chill. But i couldn't take it anymore,so i grabbed my pistol from under my matress; which i kept it there in case i ever needed to use it, not that i need it right now but you never know right? I checked to make sure that there were still bullets inside, and as soon as there were; that's when i made my way back to prom.
     The crowd was quiet as i entered back into the building, it was like they had all just seen a ghost and i was the ghost, "wow i'm impressed Lowe had the balls to come back and join us, you know i thought i knew you pretty good; but i never thought you had balls big enough to come back for more." I just kind of smiled at the things that i was about to do, and it was about to change all our lives. "Hey guys did you hear about Adam's fat mom?" Ned asked the room as everybody started laughing, that's when i absoultely lost it and did the impossiable. I digged into my pockets, and took out my pistol and started firing every bullet across the room; i remember i shot Ned in the forehead, he was killed instantly. I can't remember too much after that, i just remember hearing the police officer saying i killed ten people, and i wounded about twenty more. I had a new name "the shattered height slayer" I was told that it was the bloodiest day in Shattered Heights history.