Inner strength

Our love was once strong.
I held you in my protecting arms
Your eyes said beauty at every blink
And your smile always made me think
"How can I be so lucky, it's just a dream."
I've fallen for an angel, so it seems.

When we touched I was speechless
No questions asked, I was lost in your eyes.
Those big blue eyes that complemented
That gorgeous smile.
That kissed me with flight,
Foreseeing miles ahead in dangerous delight.

But on that day,
That miserable day.
I found myself broken,
Frozen whereIi lay.
I cried and cried
For endless nights
I could not strive
To break a smile.

Where did I go wrong?
What did I do?
I can't grasp the concept
Of leaving you.
Once so close and yet so far
I found my self crying
All alone, miserable.

I will fight for your love
I will show you my will
My pride isn't broken,
And my heart's only still

So I tried and I tried
And I failed and I failed
Again and again I never yield
I fought for your touch
And I fought for your love
But this isn't how it was supposed to end up

I admit my defeat
I accept that your gone
But the problem is, my heart is still  torn
My eyes have failed me
For I cannot see.
The truth of us,
Where would it be?

Months have gone by
And you're still in my mind
Still, I sit in the dark and still, I cry
Your name, it makes my pulse rise
But the thought of you,
It makes my light die

I do not hate,
I do not resent
But what you have done to me
Cannot be said.

My mind in pieces
As well as my heart
I pick up the pieces
But don't know where to start.

I drink myself away
To cover the pain
Ever since you,
A woman's touch
has never been the same.

But I fight on
Not for you,
But my self
Through a perilous journey
My heart is finally felt

Not happiness,
But knowledge.
I know now
How to deal without carnage

It has been two years,
And now I'm okay
I'm finally tired of playing your game
I stand on my own
I don't need your throne.
For I have found solace
and a heart that's reborn.