Seder

Good morning sunshine

this is it

I pretended not to notice
when you urinated yourself

and stood in it as
I finished my sentence
a bramble of thickening words and

I hope I didn't scare you like you scared me

but with you a whisper is

much more frightening

than the scream and I just want

because I have proved recreant
and swallowed the last of my sonic youth
and after all this time
I can't help but feel miscarried

because conclusively

there is nothing to distinguish
the difference between
a mating mourn
and the call of a lost fisherman's wife


until then