2012

 
My year
categorically
not chronologically

Home town
new boss
enraging incompetence.
opportunity
excitement
change
new home
winter beauty.
succumbing
slovenly procrastination.
new job
sameness
responsibility
boredom.

Artistic flame
reawoken  
writing
rhyming.
changing
not rhyming.
introspection
self-exploration
issues
fought
overcome
inken discovery.
drawing
steady hand
talent
honed
forms flowing
fully formed.

New acquaintance
stubborn disdain.
spark of empathy
curiosity
revelation
interest, compassion
adoration.
seeing
intensifying, solidifying
secret
not so secret
crush.
mmm Before I Sleep.
completely
irrelevant.
recently
guessed at
confirmed for
My Love
hugely increased
criticism
following
initial amusement.
 
Old French man
changing room
out of shape
huffing
grunting
panting.
shaking in terror
swallowed
tears
why?
confusion, suspicion
remembrance.
cringing
panic, tears
washroom
hiding
details flooding.
childhood comfort
retaken
Blue Eyed hugs.
nightmares
nightly
tear soaked pillow.
solitary solace
physical contact
impossible
reminding.
insomnia
welcome, enforced
release.
guilt
self-blame
logically unwarranted
regardless
bad, perverted
sinner
hatred.
despite long lost
whispers
knowledge
Shhh...
no, I'm not
a good girl.
thoughts twisted
new form
never
spoken.

Twenty twelve
year of
inward
change
truth, uncovered
acceptance.
all in all
a hard
good
year to remember.