The things you do.

This is nothing new
this is what you do
and I saw right through

But I know better now
and I'll say it proud
my heads out of the clouds

These lies bring hope
(it as all a lie;you can not deny)
These songs are how I cope
(it makes the cuts stop;it makes my heart drop)

you told me what I wanted to hear
I kept my mouth closed
My lips sealed by fear

I opened my heat
you knew from the start
-
how this would end
but you still let me bend

I bent over backwards
I broke my own spirit
the truth was screaming at me
but I wouldn't hear it

I lied to myself
(always the same lies;but I would deny)
Your love is bad for my health
(I'm slowly dying;but I wont quit fighting)

Why I try
I will never know
I slowly die
But I never lose hope
Hope follows doubt
and doubt follows hope
I let it all out
this is how I cope
I still believe in us
I still long for you
Even through all the cuts
I wished you loved me too