TGIF

        


neath the slow whirring fan
i sit unambiguous with
a disquiet hung above
like rings of saturn

i stare at my coffee mug
a black hole stares back
fluid animate unapologetic
none of us collapse in ages
to my utter disappointment

i lie down on the soiled mattress
munch on yesterday's pizza crust
spitshine as the blonde gags audibly
my grip tightens as lifeforce gurgles
eyes close in a blur of saline white

neath the slow whirring fan
i stand unperturbed
as two kids fight
one of them shoves
the other pretty hard
reprisal of the role they
have been playing at school
the victim loses his balance
crashing against me before mumbling
an apology as the elevator stops there
and then akin divine intervention

suspended mid air we all take turns
in staring at each other  
hoping hopeless
screaming silent
sweating cold

the bully pinches the whiny hard
resulting in a flurry of blows and
it gets uglier with more shoves
i finally step in and try to pry
left with no choice i shove
the bully to one corner as
he thrashes in rage like
an apache boy caught
in the quagmire

he must weigh over a hundred
and fifty giving me that fight

i try to stop the other one with
my forearm pressed to his collarbone
as he stares hard at his nemesis fighting
to free himself and get his revenge today
tears streaming cheeks flushed breath ragged

they grunt thrash kick flail for an eternity
out of the lack of will i dont open my mouth
knowing the vanity of words inside the steel box

suddenly the small one manages to break free
and i shove him again to the corner when he steps
on the bottom of his large trousers while spreading his legs

the elevator door suddenly opens and voices flash lights seep in

looking up i hear a collective gasp and urgent murmurs

the weak victim feels cold and frozen against my forearm
he stands naked gaze down ass glued to the cold steel

i smell shit in the air