How can It be Unconditional

I felt the person inside me leave today...but...
It was more like they left everything and just walked away
And I couldnt beg them to come back,my voice went bare
I was still breathing,but it wasn't AIR

I overdosed on something that was meant to kill ME..
But instead for w,e reasons it finally set my Soul free
Free from pain and insecurities ,Free from heartache and worry
But yet it left Tears and all the heartbreak for Me..

I wanted to go with a clean slate,no feelings
But im left with regret and this unhappy ending
Something got left behind,and it wasnt just me
It was something i would cherish forever
with 10 tiny fingers and 2 little feet
Beautiful Brown eyes and the resemblance of Me

How could i leave that without fighting to stay
But it's like im a painted canvas who's colors are fading away
How can I get me back ? How can i find strength ?
Im forced to look at a face of somthing who once taunted me
Even tho ,this small piece of love only wants to love me
How can I love it, knowing theirs pain...............