Powerless

Since I've hit the ground
all i see is black
trying to get back up
You pushed down to react

You point in my direction
Saying the fault is all mine
I believed that lie for the longest time

You told me you loved me, you told me you cared
another like that took control of my mind
And I'll block out all the pain, I'll take all the hurt
to keep you from getting what you really deserve
The acidity of it all pulsates deeper through me
I can only hope that you like what you see

I don't even know if I realized your works were eating me away
All I was certain of was I wanted you to stay

And sitting here alone in this dark-ridden room
you watched me as I slashed and scraped
You felt every burn and bruise

My heart cried a thousand rivers
and bled an ocean from you

You soon discovered my soul was aching
from the mistakes that you've been making
Then wrap tight chains around my heart
spilling its last blood
and tearing me apart

You've ripped open my healing scars
it tells me who you really are

I don't know why I sat in helpless decay
All I wanted was for you to stay

I'm just a puppet, one of your playthings
It seems my life is yours for the wasting
Though lately you've drifted further away
It scorches my insides
And corrodes me into flame
I can sink into numbness with the slice of a blade
But I'll get lost inside you and start fading away

My soul is left crumbling, neglected, ignored
even so my mind will not grasp
The master drops his puppet when he starts to get bored

Yesterday you tossed me away like a stone
I had no strength or sense of my own
What was left was a collapsed and empty shell
sunk in on itself from the weight of this hell

You walked away as I died inside
I obviously wasn't worth as much as your pride

And now that you've gone....
You can have your thanks from me
You thought you destroyed me, that I'd die in suffering
but the moment you left,
There came a light I thought'd I'd never see

A sudden wave of peace took the sins away
somewhere far from me
somewhere I'll never find them, I'll never again see
You thought it'd destroy me, that I'd be trapped in my pain
But you'd only put me out of my misery.
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