My twisted mind

These thoughts have
gotten more serious
The gruesome images,
More vivid
I lie awake at night
Thinking and visualizing
These things
These plans
I know i don't have the
Heart to do
Any of these things
Yet these thoughts
Keep harassing my mind
They're making me go dark
The things i say and do have
Become more and more
Morbid
My heart twists at the thought
Of the thrill
Sinister smiles come forth
When i see these images
Outside of my mind
Most of me has accepted
This obsession
But there's one little part of me
One little voice that is
Screaming out how
This isn't right
That this really scares me
That doesn't know what
I've become.