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The story of my life
People think that don't know me think that I have had a "perfect" life
Yeah whatever "perfect" is called these days"
people think I'm normal with nothing to worry about
yeah whatever people think "normal" would be
But what people dont know is what my life is really like
I think about it every night
What people think my life is like based on how people treat me
And how do people treat me?
Well it goes a little something like this
"There is no possible way you could now how "I" feel or what I go through
"I go through the same pain everyday and nothing ever gets better for me and all I want to do is shoot myself in the head because people make me think everything is my fault"
"Yeah thats pretty much all the basics people tell "me" That "I DON'T UNDERSTAND"
Well the truth is....
I do understand...
For my life is not "perfect" or "normal"
For I do know what it is like to be in pain everyday
Now it is my turn to speak my words
It is my turn to be heard
For people out there wondering
I do know what it is like to be beaten
for I have been beaten so bad that I have had bruises of every color of the rainbow (NOT EXAGERATION)
I do know what it is like to be raped
for it was so bad that I have horrible flashbacks that I can not get rid of
I do know what it is like to have a unwanted abortion that is forced upon my own will
It was one of the most painful and hardest things I had to do
I do know what it is like have drug addictions that feel like they are nearly impossible to stop
I do know what it is like to be a cutter
And have blood dripping down making puddles on the ground and thinking to yourself how much of a relief it is
I do know what it is like to have a father/mother not care for you
and feeling like the only way to make them care is to just kill yourself
I do know what it is like to be locked up in a mental hospital because everyone thinks you are completely insane and there is no other hope for me
I do know what it is liked to lose someone very special to you
I've lost my sister, and three best friends either over suicide or overdosing
And that is just the beginning
Oh and another thing...
Guess WhaT????
I'M STILL ALIVE!!!!!
So if i can live through this all so can you
Yeah whatever "perfect" is called these days"
people think I'm normal with nothing to worry about
yeah whatever people think "normal" would be
But what people dont know is what my life is really like
I think about it every night
What people think my life is like based on how people treat me
And how do people treat me?
Well it goes a little something like this
"There is no possible way you could now how "I" feel or what I go through
"I go through the same pain everyday and nothing ever gets better for me and all I want to do is shoot myself in the head because people make me think everything is my fault"
"Yeah thats pretty much all the basics people tell "me" That "I DON'T UNDERSTAND"
Well the truth is....
I do understand...
For my life is not "perfect" or "normal"
For I do know what it is like to be in pain everyday
Now it is my turn to speak my words
It is my turn to be heard
For people out there wondering
I do know what it is like to be beaten
for I have been beaten so bad that I have had bruises of every color of the rainbow (NOT EXAGERATION)
I do know what it is like to be raped
for it was so bad that I have horrible flashbacks that I can not get rid of
I do know what it is like to have a unwanted abortion that is forced upon my own will
It was one of the most painful and hardest things I had to do
I do know what it is like have drug addictions that feel like they are nearly impossible to stop
I do know what it is like to be a cutter
And have blood dripping down making puddles on the ground and thinking to yourself how much of a relief it is
I do know what it is like to have a father/mother not care for you
and feeling like the only way to make them care is to just kill yourself
I do know what it is like to be locked up in a mental hospital because everyone thinks you are completely insane and there is no other hope for me
I do know what it is liked to lose someone very special to you
I've lost my sister, and three best friends either over suicide or overdosing
And that is just the beginning
Oh and another thing...
Guess WhaT????
I'M STILL ALIVE!!!!!
So if i can live through this all so can you
Published 25th Nov 2012
| Edited 12th Sep 2013
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25th Nov 2012 10:17pm
Not to sound preachy but I do believe that there is this combination that makes each one of unique from each other. Because of this even someone going to the best shrinks for years and years is totally capable of doing something no one expected. (can be deemed bad or good)
Or to quote the English bard, Sting, you stiil know "Nothing 'Bout Me".
Or to quote the English bard, Sting, you stiil know "Nothing 'Bout Me".
25th Nov 2012 10:24pm
I wrote this poem based on what people have told me i did not write this poem to judge other people that i do not know
25th Nov 2012 11:41pm
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27th Nov 2012 2:16am
I can relate to everything you have gone and is still going through. I have gone through majority if not all of the things you have listed that you've gone through
3rd Dec 2012 2:43am
You have no idea how much this touched me, its like i felt ur emotions
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12th Jul 2013 7:43am
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12th Jul 2013 7:45am
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Anonymous
28th Apr 2014 1:25am
I hear you.
