bound in loyalty

theres nothing like the way i feel
im so fuckin cold i cant believe
that i cant make myself stop
stop all this stupidity
i love but am not loved
i am alone all the time
but have to be loyal
i feel like im dieing
this world in which we live
tends to laugh at me
public embaressment i cant forgive
im thinking that i cant but i can
just move on away from this man
i dont wanna feel ok about this
i never want this to feel right
im here now and i love like i never knew how
but again im too alone now
so i raise myself up and plead for strength
for im my weakest when im down like i am
ive asked for the forgiveness
ive given all i can
and still im suffering beyond what i can understand
so nails through my hands
thorns around my head
im bleeding im crying god why arent i dieing
ive been so long far from where i need to be
the light at the end of the tunnel im blinded
i no longer see the reality in front of me ,bound in loyalty