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Pressure (I'm Sorry, My Love)

Dearest Andrew,

I apologize for whatever heartache I have caused you. I know for a fact that you were not this damaged and easily frustrated before I met you. Or maybe you were, I don't know. I know that I love you, and I am sorry for whatever my being around has caused. You never got so angry before, and maybe it's because it's closer to you having to move in with me, or because it's getting close to the baby being born. Maybe those things scare you, and they make you more hateful towards other things. Mainly whatever is making me upset at the current moment in time. I'm sorry Andrew, I don't know what else I can say except that. Sometimes I'm not complaining to you, I'm just simply stating my opinion about things. I'm sorry if you've become frustrated with me, or with everything because of me. I don't know how to make you feel better, how to make you calm down and just listen to me when I'm talking-- Not jumping to the conclusion that I want you to act on �whatever is upsetting me at the moment in time.

I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm rambling in this letter, I just-- I need to release all of this pressure that I feel is being put on both of us. I know things are going to get better, we're so close to having a normal life. For me to have a normal life again, and then these silly things that make me cry or make you angry will be gone. Everything will be okay, I promise my love. I'm sorry my love, I'm sorry that I've made you believe that you have to carry the world on your shoulders. You don't, you need to relax and let everything be for a little while. I'm sorry if you think that when something upsets me I want you to go and fix it-- I don't, I mostly just want you to listen to me. Maybe even continue the conversation by saying you understand-- But don't do anything, just let it be.

Everything will be okay love. Don't lose patience with me now, we're almost there.

-Yours Truly, Annie