Him not You

you don't get it
the pieces just don't fit
i don't know why
i always want to cry
no one sees the pain
not if i'm out walking in the pouring rain
no one sees the fight inside me
or how hard i'm running, how hard i'm trying to flee
he loves me and i know it to be true
but i don't want him i want you
it hurts when he whispers i love you through black words on a screen
it hurts to remember what those words used to mean
why do you have to tell me you love me now?
now when i finally have found someone i can love somehow?
why do your eyes haunt me in the middle of the night
why do i wake up wishing i weren't walking at night but rather in the day's light
the night reminds me of you
but i don't love you anymore it is true
your eyes are still as stormy as the sea
but his eyes are strong enough to protect me
you hurt me to my very core
you walked through that door
i love him now
and i have gotten over you somehow
i'm sorry but it is true
that i love him and not you