Up In Flames

Go ahead....
ask me .
I promise I will tell you
even though as I speak
my tongue bleeds against the force
of the words leaving my mouth

It's okay....really
never mind the fissures
that are beginning to rupture
across my face as every trace
of pride is evaporated into
mist that sizzles against
my skin like acid...

Leaving me...painfully aware
of the truth as it billows from
my soul in putrid smoke clouds,
suffocating all the shoulda woulda
coulda's out of my throat.

Never mind
the crazed look in my eyes
as the soul of me stares back at you
through pupils that are cracked like
stained glass windows on an abandoned church

Yet...you watch me...as if I am
the latest greatest drama being
presented on prime time televison
popcorn in hand,with a lopsided grin
on your face...you watch me,and wait.

You watch me and wait to see if I will
cry,or break down...
Because....
You told me you didn't want me.
You...told me I would never
be the one you loved.....

Then You asked me...If I was okay.
not realizing that once those poisonous
words had left your mouth...
the damage had been done.

As your heat seeking missile
found its mark...and detonated
in the depths of my heart...

You were too busy...

looking for a reaction
to see that my heart exploded
all over you... me... and my floor

The only thing you could see
was me smiling,and telling you
everything is okay...and I'm fine.

You could'nt hear  my spirit wailing
like a banshee gone mad.....

You...could'nt see
what was left of me


Going up in flames....