Pretty Black Girl

17 & Pregnant in this room all alone
Parents don't know, I just can't pick up the phone
Ive always been taught to never show emotions or shed tears
but in this moment I can't seem to hide my fears

Im not crying ..
This is hurt in its liquid state
But you could never  tell because with smile i carried on my face
As i square my shoulders and walk this line I can't help but wonder
when my life will become mine.

Ive always been that pretty black girl
Pride in moms eyes my daddy's  whole world
Careful to never disappoint
so I always stay on point
But inside I just want to be free.

I have The world was on shoulders
& its getting worse as I'm getting older
So I ask when will my life
Be mine? Squaring my shoulders as I walk this line.

This choice has never been easy
but it was my cross to bear
but the pressure to be perfect
I could never share
& now I'm in this room all alone
waiting to rid myself of this imperfection
waiting for it to be gone

Daddy will lose it & Moms heart will break
But something deep in me says this isn't my life to take.
Inching to the edge finally fighting my fears
I find myself running feeling a sense of freedom i hadn't felt in years

& I run past my selfishness, run past the pain
run past self pity & personal gain
I run to my father and kneel at his feet
and pray for forgiveness and it was granted so sweet

Now 5 years later and this pretty black girl
had a Pretty black baby who's Now her whole world.