I have a name

I have a name.
I have a name
And it isn't really mine
Or it just really shouldn't belong to me.
I have a name
It means the
The smallest protector
Of god.
I'm no protector
I bring pain with words
I guard no one.
I hate it when you use
My name.
It tells me I have work to do
Something to live up to.
I had a name,
it is no longer mine
I threw it away
Disregard it
It’s trash.
I had a name
And it wasn't me
I don't even pray
So who am I to say
That I have that name
And it's mine.
I have a name
This title,
A curse
Partly because
I'm not religious
Not even a little bit
Not even a lot.
I have a name
And yes it belongs to me
But I guess
That I could,
With time
Become half its meaning.
I have a name
And it’s not very right
For someone like me.
But it’s written legally
Nothing I can do about it now.
I have a name
And it means lion of god.
I guess I like animals
And I could be brave.
I have a name
And it's spelled really weird
But here it goes.
I have a name
And it's Arielle.