Up Against A Wall

he pushes me agianst the wall
to cement and brick and I can't fight him for he is way too strong and tall
his eyes hidden behind black sun glasses his lips twisted in a grin
can't believe I'm in this situation again
I can't help but notice the way the bright hall lights reflect on his straw colored hair
or the way he holds me to the wall with a firm grip but gentle as if he actually did care
he doesn't kiss me but I can feel he's turned on
the way he hold me body in place with both hands I pray he lets me go before too long...
my body my stupid body responded to his touch
never knew I missed being touched so much
his hands on my hips
his face way too close to my lonely lips
I pushed him away from me and I didn't stay
I simply just ran way
for I belong to you
and I can't do those things knowing that it would only hurt you so those things I no longer do
my body betrayed me again
how will I face him tonight? after the situation I got myself in?
it started with a a game
i hate my body and how it betrays me like it's all the same
when it's not cuz I know I can do better then this
I just didn't realize how much kissing and touching I actually miss