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the trick to breaking porcelain is harder than it sounds
I’ve never been one to wear my soul on sleeve
my face like a doll of porcelain
even when I cry
And I can’t make it stop
I can’t lift the fake from this smile
though if you stare through my shades
or camera click just the right moment
there might be some indication
that these demons still haunt me
I’m mannequin composure
with cracks in my eyes
and the sweetest voice that rings
of I-want-to-be-bad pretentiousness
despite the historical artefacts
that refute the claims
that I was ever a good girl
There’s money in my underwear
and a knife in my knee high boots
a joint in my bra
and someone sleeping under my bedroom
The cops were here, today
years ago
throw a pillow over the bong on the couch
someone was screaming domestic violence
Two minute noodles
and a cockroach clock
anything is high class living
when the streets have a corner
waiting for my name
to imprint itself upon the pavement
and beneath the bushes
a victim of circumstance
a lover of hell
I was always just a drama queen
until I the day I screamed suicide so loudly
the cops got called
There was a bridge with my name on it
I didn’t jump
but I did get a free ride to the psych ward
which didn’t have a bed
for someone with my silent sobbing composure
I’ve never been one to wear my soul on sleeve
my face like a doll of porcelain
even when I cry
And I wonder why
no one ever believes me
when I scream that I’m hurting
© Indie Adams 2012
my face like a doll of porcelain
even when I cry
And I can’t make it stop
I can’t lift the fake from this smile
though if you stare through my shades
or camera click just the right moment
there might be some indication
that these demons still haunt me
I’m mannequin composure
with cracks in my eyes
and the sweetest voice that rings
of I-want-to-be-bad pretentiousness
despite the historical artefacts
that refute the claims
that I was ever a good girl
There’s money in my underwear
and a knife in my knee high boots
a joint in my bra
and someone sleeping under my bedroom
The cops were here, today
years ago
throw a pillow over the bong on the couch
someone was screaming domestic violence
Two minute noodles
and a cockroach clock
anything is high class living
when the streets have a corner
waiting for my name
to imprint itself upon the pavement
and beneath the bushes
a victim of circumstance
a lover of hell
I was always just a drama queen
until I the day I screamed suicide so loudly
the cops got called
There was a bridge with my name on it
I didn’t jump
but I did get a free ride to the psych ward
which didn’t have a bed
for someone with my silent sobbing composure
I’ve never been one to wear my soul on sleeve
my face like a doll of porcelain
even when I cry
And I wonder why
no one ever believes me
when I scream that I’m hurting
© Indie Adams 2012
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