The Mirror

Seems like...

More than a week
since I took a peek
in my mirror...until today.

I took a long hard side ways
glance at my exterior....
such a hazy shell of who I used to be
as the fine lines of time
have left creases on my face...
and in my mind.
I wish I could exist in the
spaces of "rewind"as I
try to find...what got me here
in the first place
as I take my finger and trace
a line..under my jawbone,and eyes
Haunted eyes...
that have seen... too much
Experienced too much pain
and suffered through too many lies
Holding deep my secrets..
as I shed tears deep in the night
When no one hears my cries.

My reflection...flecked with the specs
of betrayal...aura now a murky glow
because of what I have been consuming
and containing in my soul.

I try to look away...yet my reflection
demands that I stare...as ghost like
images appear and make me more aware...
Of what I can not hide.
Somehow I must let go...of my inner pain
before it destroys everything I am ....
On the inside.