Many Moons of Sadness

The moon brings sadness with it every night
I hear the door creak, I know better then to fight

closing my eyes so tightly it hurts
wishing I was really under 6ft of dirt

breathing like a wild beast in my ear
I don't know if I can take this another year

no one for miles to hear my cries
every night another part of me dies

time slows down and the world seems fake
its almost like being in a dream state

I travel out of my body while it is being used
I know what is happening I am not confused

I have to cope some way
so I plot his murder every day

will tonight be the night
that I finally fight

tonight will I be brave and save my soul
tonight will I finally lose control

tonight will I take out the serrated knife
tonight will I take my fathers life

tonight will I stand up and declare myself free
tonight will I murder the one who took everything from me

the old creaking door sounds again
the moon is full, my waking nightmare begins