3am  and the phone rings.....hello

left me out in the cold
and three weeks later
you call to say you love me
but thats not love as i see
what happened did your new meal ticket
actually require something from you
you know i always make it easy
dont i baby,all you do is break my resolve
ever am i weak for you
ten days before pay day
baby i love you ,i want to kick.
too bad its painful time wasted
it will never stick
but baby id never do my worst enemy so grimey
and ofcourse i wont turn you away sick
and ofcourse you know ill just use you all up and then go
so long as theres no confusion,dont catch feeling girl.
as long as i go in knowing
i guess the line im towing
could bare the burden of another
my emotional side ,ill shove down
my true feelings hide and smother
i mean after all what is an excuse
just a reason to dull the pain reason to use
addictions afflict more than the addict
addicted to disraction from my own inadequesies
ofcourse ill be  your whipping boy
ill even volunteer to always love you and be here
for you to use me up wring me out and just stomp out my resolve
im just as dependant on you for my pennance and torture
im no martyr no hero just someone that loves unconditionally
my redemption i m assured on my knees
so baby can i come home please
i need you i dont have anyone your my best friend
this is it last time i sware please ill be there
and i know i can count on you to let me upheave your life
emotional attachment leaves a woman without anything
no home no family no partner nothing tangible
except that crying lieng promising heroin addict
ofcourse baby come home its just five days
then a month to start to heal the gapping tare in your heart
but you knew what hed do from the start giving
this addict your heart body mind and soul really whos more in control ill never tell him no id never let him go
the outcome you already know but ofcourse ill be nurse
cause i need someone to love to love me co dependancy