cowardice

all the firmament of heaven and earth
screaming at once
The cacophany is deafening
mouth full of half-dissolved pills
attempting to silence the voices
exercising the only control I have
my life my self
and all falls silent.

I am speaking; a car
who can't fire on its cylinders
one hand claps
words are meaningless in a life
that has no meaning
I am scared
I will soon be dead.

I pull away from this.
Monitors beep in a vacuum
I float and I fly
Being survived by...
Fallen victim to...
Quiet..
If I could stay
I could sleep rest die

The beeping crescendo
Leads the orchestrated voices
Banging, bashing, clashing
life

I have everything
but still have nothing