Life As I Know It (Or something like it)

There was a time
When all I knew was
Double tap -
Duck and run -
Drive, man, drive!
But I had someone.
I loved her, I knew I did
She loved me, or so she said
She made me smile.
I smiled like a killer for years.
Cause love ain’t love
Not when it’s only relief.
Relief that there’s someone as fucked up as you are.
Course then she tried to kill me
And I left those years behind.

Then there was a time
When all I knew was
Had to leave –
Can’t go back –
Why, God, why?
And I had no-one.
I hated it, I knew I did
But I could last, or so I said
It made me smile.
I smiled like a madman for a year.
Cause life ain’t life
Not when you’re just going through the motions
That ain’t living cause that’s just surviving
And son that ain’t no way to live.
So course I worked hard to move on
Left that year behind.

Then there was a time
When all I knew was
Out of place –
Can’t adapt –
Chill, man, chill!
Then I found someone.
I loved her, I know I did
Did she love me – she never said.
She made me laugh.
I laughed and I was happy for a year.
Cause that felt right
Sitting in our tiny rooms with music on a screen and birds outside
Putting the rest of the world on hold for a while.
Then came a summer and my world shattered
So I moved on...I think.

Now this is a time
When all I know is
Fuck this shit –
Won’t ever change –
Who cares, man?
And I have no-one
I’d love her, I know I would
But HER love me?  She never could
It makes me smile.
I’ll be smiling like the devil for years.
Cause ain’t that life?
You give the emotion and you open your heart
Then the world cuts it up and reality comes gushing in to burn what’s left.
And I can't be fucked trying to move on again
Leaving this year behind.


Because boys and girls,
Here’s the real skinny.
Don’t fall in love with anyone
Cause they’ll take that love and they’ll eat it all up
And soon there won’t be nothing left of you but pain.
You’ll lie, you’ll say it’s nothing
You’ll act like you were joking
And inside you’ll be on fire.
Cause the truth is you were never offered a taste of the truth.
There’s no prince or princess for you.
You’ll never be a king or queen, you’ll never be president.
You’ll be like the rest of us sorry fucks,
Dying by inches.
Trying to scratch some meaning out of a world that doesn’t have any.
Looking for roses and wondering why you keep stabbing yourself on the thorns.
And when your parents told you that it would all be ok in the end?
When they told you it stops hurting eventually?

They lied.