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My Last Goodbye

I don't know if you'll ever get this, but I guess it just feels good to hope. Or to wish more like. I really thought we had something. I thought we were happy. Maybe I just wanted it to be true, but I really did think that we were going to last a lot longer than that. I thought we would at least last until next Christmas, maybe even forever. But I guess it's hopelessly stupid to wish, or dream. No happily ever afters, no Prince Charming's, no "it all worked out in the end" or "see, life isn't shitty after all"'s. Everything is just as bad as it was before. Worse actually; before you I could have pretended to be happy with the shit life truly is. But now I have nothing to look forward to. Yes, everything is a lot worse without hope. And what used to be a mere scratch becomes a wound deeper than you thought one could ever go.
I really loved you, and I thought you loved me too. Silly me, thinking someone like you would love me. Thinking that hope lives, that death and despair didn't have control over all things. I really screwed up this time. But I have learned from this one, and have a remedy for the situation.
I let my heart run away with the fairy tales and happy endings. But never again. Never again will I hurt for someone else's choices. The wounds in my heart will fade with time, just as the remains of my pathetic life will fade. As my flesh rots away, my liquids drying up, and my mind leaves, I will leave the earthly bounds. I will embrace freedom. Goodbye my love, may you find yourself in better spirits than I find me. My love... Ironic seeing as I will never love again.
Blessed Be.
Written by stormz_of_fire (River)
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