after the fall

I took it, still beating from my chest  
and crushed it in my traitor's hands †  
tears of crimson salt †  
spilling down my face in cleansing tears; †  
the candle in my ribcage snuffed out †  
between the blinks of my eyes. †  
For years I clung to the dream of you †  
when all I really wanted †  
was for you to break my heart. †  
I tried to run, and bury myself †  
in warm dark places where I could forget †
the butterflies trapped in your gaze †
every time you looked at me. †  
I loved you like the ocean †  
madly, passionately, crazily †  
and it wasn't enough to rework †  
the wires inside that made me something †  
I never wanted to be. †  
It's over now, with two words we died †
and I'll never know if I broke the beating red organ †  
wrapped snugly within your rib cage †  
because I don't want to know if you still love me. †  
This death of hope is a new breath †  
to a new era, without the pretence †
that I could ever be anything other than me. †  
† †
© Indie Adams 2012
Written by Indie (Miss Indie)
Published | Edited 24th Aug 2012
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