The Elusive....

Rare....
as an Albino Unicorn
with a diamond for it's horn
it is...hiding in between the folds of life
like the faeries that often visit little kids
 
It is the Elusive ....sometimes intrusive
enemy...that glides...and hides in plain
sight ...right in front of me...
It's my imaginary friend that never keeps
me company
Its like Willy Wonka's chocolate... I eat a lot
but still feel empty...
 
Just when I think I have it in my sights
somehow...
something changes or someone turns on the lights
and ...late at night... I call to the four winds
hopin ...to get it right  
hopin to bring the Elusive Force of Love...
into my Life...
 
 
Searching in my dreams as I look over and under moonbeams
as I come across universal drifters who force me
to rely on my gift as a shapeshifter...
For some are not what they seem
 
Now... I can see my past in the shower steam
as echoes of what could have been cause me to lean
against my shower wall.....
As I let my tears fall.....
and I wonder if Love's Spirit
even hears me at all.....
It's...
The Elusive... White Stallion of old
That my eyes have yet to behold
A love that is true in all its glory...
Yet I believe it to be just another
Elusive fairytale story
...As I imagine what it would be like
for a real man to adore me...
and not ignore me...but be
Deeply...
Passionately
Into me...
As Tinker Bell whispers small hopes  into my ear
almost inaudibly...where my heart cant hear....
 
As I lay the weight of my heart strings upon the table
I realize... I am ready for Love...yes I am willing and able
 
As my internal vibration bounces off my skin
I realize...I must close my external eyes...
In order to let .... The Elusive in