He's Always There

he can make me smile even as I want to die
he makes me laugh though I want to cry
and though in reality I'm still here alone
he makes it feel like I'm not on my own
I miss my family so much it hurts physically and I feel so sick right now
and in spite of all that seems to be going oh so wrong he can still make me smile somehow
I never wanted a guy like him
but to him I'm drawn back again and again
he always seems to be there when I need him
how is it he's the one who always gets me out of the depression that I sometimes get in?
and though my blood feels like it's going cold
he helps me to keep my hold
my hold on the life that's always stabbing me in the back
how my heart is breaking, I'd do anything to have my family back
and though I am feeling so sad
he's always there to remind me that's life's not all that bad
and though I'm still alone
he makes me feel as if I'm not on my own