Are You Happy?

are you happy now that you know that I'm crazy for you?
are you happy that you were right about me?

but you still have no idea what I'm going through
how does it feel to know what my feelings happen to be?

does it feel good to know you were right?
don't message me I won't reply

you're going to feel good alone tonight
yeah I'm still crazy about you but I can't call you my guy

I want to be your friend
cuz I know that's all we'll ever be

I'll always be alone in the end
my heart is breaking but you can't see

are my feelings just a joke to you?
is that why your telling all your friends?

yeah my feelings are not done nor through
but I'm waiting until it all ends

should I cry because you'll probably never love me?
or be as happy as you seem to be all the time

my heart is breaking but you can't see
because you'll be my friend but I'll never be able to call you mine

none of my feelings seem to be returned
I could cry a thousand million tears

but all I'm feeling is burned
this has to be one of my deepest fears

that I could love someone and be miserably happy
and not be able to say good bye

when did I turn so sappy?
why is it that I can't find tears to cry?

I'm happy as can be
simply for I know

he does care about me
but I'm torn so

loving you is like breathing air
though I can hold my breath for awhile

I find it hard to stay away from the one who always was there
what I'd give just to see that boy smile

I know he's confused about me
but what am I supposed to do?

when I'm happy in this sweet misery
don't believe me? why not it happens to be true?

is he happy? would he be even happier without me?
that's something I would like to know

if he could ever find himself missing me
would it even matter him if I chose to go?