I Always Run

I'll always run, I'll always hide
I can't, I just can't let anyone inside
though he means everything to me
I just can't let myself hurt him see?
don't tell me I won't because I will I always do
yeah I might love him it's true
but that's why
I must leave, I must say good bye
before I hurt him or make him cry
he is everything I have ever wanted
he's the guy of my dreams the one that's always haunted
I can't face him after all that I've done
I know for a fact that loving me and being loved by me is no fun
so here I am again on the run
he is everything to me
he is all that I have ever needed, see?
that's why I run, that's why I hide before I make either of us cry
no no one understands my reasons why
I have to run I have to hide
before I let him get any deeper inside
he can claim everything I am I'd give it all to him freely can't you see?
there's something deeply wrong with me
I can't stay with anyone
I have to run, run, run
my feet might not move an inch
but I can run miles from you in a pinch
oh how I already miss him
I don't know if I have the strength to run again
so afraid of screwing up of making one of my mistakes
God I swear I'll do whatever it takes
to not hurt him, so help me please
even if it means I have to leave
I might love him I don't know
but if I do would I still have the strength it's take to go
he's everything to me
but I won't let myself hurt him see?
and if it means I have to run
I will leave my heart in his hands and be done
God please help me
I'm so scared of who I happen to be