d i l e m m a

   
   
today my catholic parrot died  
   
catholic cos' 'was raised in the house of god  
 
damn place was shared by the family of a friend  
who called themselves christians  
   
devout is the word they often used  
   
this bird was called mary in their home  
how i got her is a complicated story    
incest is the word i would use as  
rape and christian means scandal   
 
there was a suicide and a murder  
also one more family member had
set herself ablaze ending in coma
daughter son mother in sequence

mexican stand off i would reckon  
 
father used to go to mass say prayers  
well respected man built like an ox  
carried this gravitas like a millstone
did unchristian things to his children
even his wife chose to suffer for years

bastard had them under a spell i reckon
 
his favourite authors were despentes and sade  
always locked in his closet    
i got those books from a fundraiser
    
later on he landed in a funny farm    
one summer day some nonchristian sicko  
smashed his face in line with a few other things    
 
sicko died but the father lived  
poor bastard crapped in a bowl
and peed in his bed always
 
noone changed sheets for days
 
one day old man died end of story
   
mary was living three months with me  
when it happened  
   
good girl mary    
   
always greeted me with an aplomb no woman could match  
ate on time fluttered her wings talked about joshua and  
michael and some disrobed guy whose wings got burnt  
as he fell and she went on the chatter some more  
   
until i played a hardcore s and m at the loudest  
she drifted into a silence and never came back  
   
good girl mary  
   
probably her nightmares from the christian home were back  
all the sounds grunts growls yelps tears sighs moans  
 
they probably did things to mary  
   
as they did things to me    
 
but it was mutually unknown  
   
she never greeted me since then  
ate once in a while pooped less  
never fluttered or cartwheeled    
   
six weeks she took to drop dead    
in silence inside a rusted cage  
undignified loveless gulit-trapped  
   
it was probably suicide  
so in case there is an afterlife for animals  
damn bird will be fried and burnt  
   
whatever really mary  
   
now that you are inside this plastic bag  
do i say mass or what  
   
bitch   
   
   
   
[Submitted in the 'Walking with someone else's shoes]