should have known this too

how can you see clearly through tear burnt eyes
even as the stinging truth comes from their mouths in the forms of lies
and still they dance around the questions and elude your cries for answers
with petty repitition and seem as if your the law and they plea the fifth
you know from past experiences and even current situations
that they are pacifying you
you hold no dillusions you are grown but even this you should have known
you gave him power even as you allow such trivial pursuits
clearly him and your friend are in cahoots
and with sticky smiles still wet from bobbing for apples of half truths
your the only one crying hes just the one evading and lieing
he never answered straight
hes trying to turn this love to a hate
he plays chess useing you and your time as peices and pawns
and when in a rosey hue the clue does on a love sick fool dawn
but alas you sat and stayed sick as he got weller and weller
all day and all night
and you recieve him eagerly like an idiot without explanation or a fight
and he smiles within for again he did win you are that stupid bitch
for all you put up your facade of strength and not me i wont have it
he laughs inwardly as you eat up every proclamation of loves
future hopes
as you need what he provides sweet lies to stop tears and drugs that stop sickness
and he knows he can count on you because above all you love him
and youve loved him from the start
but he has only just begun to love you
and this you knew and in silent verbal assault upon no other but you
you write here for you battle just what to do how do you look at his face those eyes and try not to fall in love again and again
so with this sad salute i dive headlong no parachute