Heavier than heaven

Feeling heavier than Heaven,
hotter than hell,
you wonder why I hate you?
Heres my quick and tell.

"YOu lost me forever" you say
making me wanna leak the crimson,
that keeps me alive each day.
"Never see me again" you yell,
making me wonder why,
nothing was wrong that I could tell.
"You are nothing to me now" you resite,
begging you for forgiveness,
just to be hated despite.

Days a later you call me,
i dont answer,
Leaving me a message,
curiosity wants me to see.
" I'm so sorry" you say,
with choking noises.
I wonder whats different, from the previous day.

You call again, answer I do not.
Yet another message wait,
to read it i forgot.
"I said sorry, so fuck you
for not forgiving me" You screamed,
ignoring the words that echoed,
nothing is ever what it seems.

I call you back
"What the fuck do you want"
Awaits on the other side.
" Sorry" is all i could uttter.
He hangs up on me
thought it would make things better.
No more words were spoken,
leaving our friendship,
dijointed and broken.

You wonder why I hate you,
try reading this,
maybe you will realize,
I was not the cause of this.
It was you who was angry with me,
only the unstubborn and willing to listen,
only the unblind would be able to see.