Ice Walls

My walls protect me, yes they stand so tall
I'm barricaded inside them confident they'll never fall
You can't touch me because they won't let me feel a thing
Keeping me as cold as ice shielded from the pain that love can bring
My heart is locked away for it must be frozen
To preserve all the good that's left of my emotion
Love shall melt it when the time is right
But that time is not tonight

So I'm gonna walk away to my house made of ice
Don't try to follow me, don't even think twice
Cuz I'm just not worth the pain
That I'll cause you with my games
I don't know how to make the right choices
Or how to silence all of the voices
That remind me constantly of all the pain I've felt
Telling me the only one I can trust is myself
The ice keeps my emotion safe
For when I'm ready for love one day

You hold me as if you never want to let me go
I can feel your heart beating warmth into my soul
My emotions want nothing more to explode
But I've trapped myself in a stealth kind of mode
The hot kiss from your lips makes these walls feel unsturdy
I can't let them fall out of fear that you might hurt me
Because once I let you in there is no going back
Making me vulnerable to an attack

Trembling body, nervous heart
Composed emotion, falling apart
You make me wanna restart
Solid ground, becomes unsteady
I'm breaking down, your arms are ready
To catch my pieces so heavy
My pain is turning, from ice to water
Unstable structure, strong no longer
A full heart becoming empty
You radiate heat, into my entire being
Forcing love out of me, my veins are just seeping
Somehow you knew I had plenty
And I don't know how you broke through my shield
I thought I made it undefeatable

But see, when you keep things concealed for so long
You think you can take anything on
The most consuming love I believed I could resist it
I just never knew that people like you existed
To challenge my defences and to see me so clear
To know that I'm not as cold as I appear
And still I wonder why you fought as hard as you did
I just hope that I can make it worth it
Because I know that things won't always be nice
As I adjust to a life without the safety of ice