schoolgirl crush persists

 you give me butterflies and whirlwinds in my head
you make my heart play polyrhythms or sometimes stop dead
the feel of you in my mind
leviathain of my thoughts
wondering if you feel the same of sorts
reality however is not so sweet
pins and needles whenever we meet
I blush and I'm awkward
not usually the case
but i fear the lust is plain on my face
your friendship I value
too much to risk
Yet i cant help imagine
what you'd be like to kiss