Teach Me

teach me again
I've forgotten how to be on my own
teach me, teach, oh, teach me
someone teach me again
how to live my life without him
I need some instruction
to live without his brand of destruction
someone please teach me
someone teach me please
I need a release
I'm ignoring my knife
someone teach me how to restart living my life
when before him all I had was quiet
now I can't stand the silence
someone teach me, someone help me
I'm drowning in my own sea
a sea of self pity!
it's like sinking sand
I cant escape without a helping hand
someone help me, I can't make it on my own
I need to be taught how to be alone
I know I don't need him
but I dont know how to be lonely again
knowing I won't ever see his face again
someone teach me how to not think of him
someone teach me how to block out the screaming in my head
how to have the strength to get out of bed
I know I need to be strong
but how do I go back to being alone when it has been so long?
I don't want the silence, it's killing me
oh God it's killing me
someone drown out the voices in my head
the keep whispering thought and memories of him
I can't do this on my own
I need a new place to call home
cuz everywhere I go
everything reminds me of him
and I can't survive another flash back
my mind is under attack
my brain seems to be stuck on replay
how do I press stop or delay?!
cuz I can't stand it anymore
all it's doing is hurting me and leaving me sore
I have to stop thinking of him
someone teach me! oh someone teach me please
someone drown out the memories
someone please! please! please!
he has my mind under his control
I'm losing to his hold
I'm sicking in this pain
SOMEONE HELP ME GET AWAY!!!!!
whispers and cries keeping me up all night
and he still won't tell me why
he said good bye!
it's killing me!
oh God its killing me!
I'm left laying the floor
head in my hands
trying to block all the memories swimming in my head
I can't stand to look at my bed
all the times he's kissed me
all the places that we went
every word
ever look
every touch
oh God I miss him so much
it's tarring me apart
these memories keep playing with my heart
and I can't stop it
trust me I've tried
I've run, I've tried to hide!!!
but I'm running from my own mind!
will someone save me in time?
before I fucking shoot out my mind
I can't take one more memory
I can't take one more love song
I can't take all the rights!
all the fucking wrongs!
someone teach me how to save myself
cuz I can't rely on anyone but myself
teach me! teach me! teach me!