My Reason To Live

making my family smile
makes living life worth while
feeling the sun on my face
or seeing a spiders web wet with dew, nature's pretty lace
my cousin making me laugh until my sides hurt and I nearly cry
all this and more are my reasons for choosing not to die
hearing someone say they love me
or reading it on my computer screen are reasons for me to be
to give in to the call of my knife
to end my worthless life
is not something I plan to do
because the people in my life and me are simply not through
I am not a coward and I will not do what they do
I will fight to be happy, now how about you?
sure some days I might cry
some days I might want to die
some days I might wish to heed my knifes call
but trust me im strong enough to not fall
so yes I might cry myself to sleep at night
and wonder why everything isn't going right
but when I hold the knife to my wrist at my weakest moments
when I am sick of drama and hurtful comments
one by one faces come to my hurting mind
one by one they remind me of all the good times
of why I haven't given up yet
my family would never get over my death
my family, their all I have
my family, their the ones who wipe my tears away
their the ones who care whether or not I feel this way
my family isn't perfect but their better then all the rest
to me my family is the best
sure a guy might make me cry and want to die
but my family is my reason why
I don't base my happiness on one, or on two
my family is my happiness, they are mine and their my reason why with life I will never be through
my families always there for me
it's their faces that I see
when im dark depressed and lonely
my home is with my family
it's for them that I continue to live
I am lucky I know that much is true
some days might be gray and blue
but I have a reason to live, a reason to never be through
my family makes me strong
help me change when im wrong
love me when I'm unlovable
are they when everyone has was walked away
my family is here to stay
we might fight, we might scream
but love is what you cant see
holds us together faithfully
I love my family
and that's my reason to live