Secluded

In the silence
that consumes
I hear reverberations
within the room...
I can barely make out the sound
in silence they simply drown.
Then my mind tracks back
to those places
those places tucked tightly away.
I want to know what each moment
has to say, and how I can relate to it this day.

But tumultuous thoughts threaten to pull me back
back and forth back and forth
through the lonely halls of my hidden dreams.
My memories are like ghosts
in shadowed corridors.
A smell, a touch, a thought
lead me back for more.
Ravenously I walk towards
those distant feelings
cognitive unveiling has me on hold.
Am I simply delusional
did I never have what I feel now
The sand it slips through my fingers.
Then tell me why do these snapshots
in the lens of my mind linger?
They grow weaker and weaker
then suddenly stronger.

I am not even sure of who I am
She was lost somewhere on this road back there.
The curves of the journey came out of the blue
Distinguishing what is the truth
seems impossible to do.
What once were words of rarest love
have now disguised themselves
and then maybe they took off their masks.
If what I thought was truth really was
then this question begs not to ask.
But alone now I have the time to know
mirrors reflect the one you love
Who knows me best
I really don't .
Mistaken you could be
yet on a deep quest.
I tried my best to accept the pain
and deal with it my only way
but the boat gently rocks
and I'm wrought with the shame.
But departing doesn't feel like an answer.
Too many tapestries have been woven
the design is a complex array.
How can a person understand it
yet how can one turn and walk away?

There is a figure in the distance
but the face has a cover
a shield
a veil
that is revealed.
I leap for joy
then my heart hits
the floor
I cannot make out the face.
But the feelings like a ship are sunken
and no treasure abounds from deep within.
Just lingering thoughts
with the ghosts in the halls..
They never stop..
but carry on
and carry on.