Cause and effect

Shes in town
hence the frown
its been twenty years
and i feel fifteen again full of the same fears
 
left to fend for myself on the streets
nowhere to go nowhere to sleep
thanking god for the kindness of strangers
and fuck all of those who lead me to danger
 
I have had a crazy fucked up life  
some days i spent looking for rope or a knife
i wanted to end it all
but I'm a survivor, i refused to fall
 
no mother no father  
no money to squander
i lived by my wits
never my tits
 
i was always way to smart
because i use my brain, not my heart
so the things i have gone through only made me stronger
and i dont have a need for my mother any longer
 
some nights i would cry alone begging for her to find me
begging did nothing begging only made me see
it showed me how empty this cruel world truly is
my heart died, it burned and fizzed
 
I went on with life and survived  
even tho the simplest things i was denied
realizing this is it
in turn never made me want shit
 
so mommy when you ask yourself why
remember you left your 1st born on the streets to die
you haven't see me in twenty years
now its time for you to pour out tears