Confusion

Is it me or is it dark in here, in the darkness of my mind
The point is still not clear in here, there's still something i need find.
Nothing makes sense anymore, i don't want the air i breathe.
I just don't want to stay anymore, finally check out and leave.
Time is no great healer, it's just more and more time to dwell.
on a future that will never be, and a past i wished hadn't happened as well.
Yet here i am all alone by myself, with only a single reason im here.
She is the most beautiful thing the world has seen, but i'm scared i'd only cause her fear.
Cos i don't know my self anymore, i really don't know who i am.
Am i the dad that i really want to be ? But im only ever seen as a sham.
My family must be really so proud, cos i've lost my head again
I wish this was all a dream in a coma, and i couldn't remember my name.
cos  if i awoke i could put it all down, to the dream that i'd just had.
And everything i'd done wasn't real, and i wasn't really that bad'
But we all know the truth of who i am, and the kind of guy i will always be.
Just a confused idiot whose lost his way, and who can only depend on me.