Renovating Me

Softly,
I walk down the corridors
of my heart.
Careful to step over all the soft spots,
full of old pains and aches.
As I nimbly run my fingers over all the patches
and stitches along its walls...each one holding
a vibrant memory,to someone I used to be...
With someone I used to know.
My intentions were to clear a space, somewhere in
the vastness of myself to make room for something new
to dwell within...yet,as I walk this shaded halls I
realize that I can not make room yet,as my previous pains
are still deeply rooted in the fabric of me.
I thought I could take a bulldozer and just tear the old house
of debauchery down...
But there are still so many delicate parts of me that I dont want to loose....
just because I have to get rid of other things.
So...here I am
walking softly,and with purpose
seeking out what is still salvageable inside my soul
rewinding my mental tape catching phrases long forgotten
Pulling images and emotions from under the rubble
Gently,cleansing and healing these patchwork parts of me
As I remove the demolition sign,and add one that says
Closed for renovations instead.