Loving You

You're the first boy I wanted to kiss
You're the boy I still miss
I loved you then and I love you now
Don't ask me why, don't ask me how
You make me shiver, make me want more
So much more then I have ever wanted before
I can't think straight when you are here
Damn boy, I just want to say I want you near
I can't stop thinking about how much I want you now
I can't figure out how to say it but I want it anyhow
Why do you have to be so damn far away from me?
Why is it you are still the boy I want to see?
You have always driven me crazy
Every single time you call me baby
It just brings on the flood of memories
All these moving images of you and me
How your hand would've touched my hand
How those hands held my face
Touched me through my clothes
I can still feel your heart beat
Can still feel the heat of your breath
I can still feel you on top of me
I can't breath without you; can't live without you
You were the first boy I've ever truly loved
I swear I still love you, I swear I still love you
You took my nightmares all away
I need you more then I will ever admit out loud
I can't find the courage to say those three words
We've both have heard them too many times before
But boy, my heart and soul simply are yours
I've tried endlessly attempts to move on
I've even found loving from other guys
But they are not and just could not be you
Their eyes don't look at me the same
They are just far, far, far too tame
I find that I've a need for your fire
I need your desire to carry me higher
You drive me crazy with those ever changing eyes
at the end you are the only one I truly love
I know you aren't by any means  perfect
I know you will very likely hurt me
But I've been hurt by you before
I know that I can survive your fire
All that I need if for you to let me inside
I know the girls before me broke your heart
But I don't care if it's broken, mine's broken too
I still love you even after all this time
I hate how I much I need you boy
When I don't how you even feel about me
You are so very willing to kiss me
Even to admit out loud that you miss me
The smallest touch leaves me hungry for more
Your lips have that familiar taste of rain
I love your special brand of pain
I know I will miss you when I have to go
So tell me what I need to know
Will I be waiting forever for you?
Cuz I know I'll always be in love with you
No one can take the place of you
No one has those color shifting eyes
That change from green to gray to blue
God only knows how much I'm in love with you
I've loved you for so many years
Now I find that I'm sitting here
Writing another poem to you
Questioning do you love me to?
Or am I just another girl to you?