The day before

the day before you died  
we held each other and cried  
you said we would always be  
and you would never leave  
   
i think about that day all the time  
you were taken in your prime  
i knew you were addicted    
i knew you were conflicted  
   
i tried tough love  
i tried praying to the god above  
nothing worked for long  
everything i tried was wrong  
   
when they called to tell me about you  
i wouldn't believe it to be true  
i drove to the hospital  
not wanting it to be possible  
   
i got there and took the elevator down    
to the morgue an actual ghost town  
tears begging me to let them free  
i did, once they let me see  
   
they opened the small door and pulled you out  
my fist clenched and chills were felt thru out    
they pulled the sheet down to reveal your face  
i fell to the floor of that horrendous place  
   
two men helped me up to my feet  
then they covered your beautiful face with that sheet  
they asked if it was you  
i shook my head yes and they pushed you back thru  
   
that day i will never forget  
I'm filled with so much regret  
i should have done more  
i had no idea what was in store  
   
you were my heart and soul  
i feel like i helped you lose control  
i should have hid those fucking pills  
the ones that slowly kill  
   
i shouldn't of given you money  
but i loved you, you were my honey  
your gone, everything is so strange  
there's so many things i wish i could change  
   
cant get you out of my head  
cant get out of my bed  
i feel like i helped you die  
and for that reason i cry