disappointment is the waiter serving your table

Fuck knows.There's meaningfulness there though.But it's playful and self conscious.
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To devote time and effort to things that don't work out
is to be speared like Christ on the cross
or basically,
BOLLOCKS
Yes
Big sweaty hairy fucking man bollocks.
It's as awkward as the stare of a granny from under her hood
like it's a cave
Plato's cave and you're coming into the sun for the first time
meeting old age and reality
and your knackers have been rattled and are blowing in the breeze
and spinning around 360 degrees
You try to hold onto the refuse of the past
like clingons stuck to your arse
and it's hard to let go unless you wipe all the shite off
and start again.
Leaping puddles but still getting splashed
drinking with friends and alcohol alien-ates
as you get your dreams smashed
Bottled and cunt kicked in.done in.
disappointment is the waiter serving your table
slathering your plate with another helping of a fable
but the lies are dry
and as you reach for a satchet or bottle,there is no sauce.
Pictures of a city are eclipsing your previous beloved girls
putting tinfoil round your emotions with a cake base and leaving it
in the fridge to cool till another day.
Relating to the zombie in the film, trace your family tree and see you're twice removed
the holes in your shoes are like your self substance,worn thin,worn out
and you could buy new ones but you've just bought food
so that metaphor is thrown in the box in the cupboard with bank statements and cretaceous period love letters
which like the dinosaurs ended in mass extinction
 of a long held longing for completion in another
a desire to have self worth affirmed by an other.