I Waited With the Match

Excellent write

Thank you…

It’s always fascinating to see who chooses to linger in the dark with me, even if only for a breath.

This piece - like many - was born in that space where desire and shadow blur, where something raw and dangerous stirs beneath the surface. I wanted the words to feel like a forbidden touch… one you know you shouldn’t want, yet crave all the same.

There’s a darker truth woven in, of course - but tonight, I’d rather let the passion speak. Lust can be just as intense… and far easier to surrender to. Because the darkness can just be too painful, but then when you have been drowned in it, it becomes home. An obsession, and addiction... perpetuating the damage.

This^^^^^^.

Hey RT... Well look at you being all mysterious, making me ask... what about this? You can't just leave something like that open damnit.

Fair enough....

There’s a darker truth woven in, of course - but tonight, I’d rather let the passion speak. Lust can be just as intense… and far easier to surrender to. Because the darkness can just be too painful, but then when you have been drowned in it, it becomes home. An obsession, and addiction... perpetuating the damage.

Your intensity is always a page turner. We've spent time talking about the substance of this.

Our traumas push and often outline our arousals. This thin line puts reflection on trauma on a collision course, push pull.

Writing substance on this effect triggers and baths....your authentic tone and street credit wise approach has that dynamic.

The strength than of using that backgrounding to reach resolution is both arousing and indicting. Do you harbor or honor or glory or trigger....or all at once?  That multiple position is like superpositioning in physics. The reader brings that temporary answer.

I was just underscores your awareness of the process. You know what works for you and you share that. It's that naked emotional tension that appears. That's good writing.

I am glad I asked, because you have a deep wisdom and intuition that means something to me.

"Our traumas push and often outline our arousals. This thin line puts reflection on trauma on a collision course, push pull." You recognize what I was saying that often trauma creates our powerful addictions and obsessions especially when it happens very young. Somehow the most intense lust and passion can be born from the deepest pain. You understood about the space where desire and pain blur, where trauma isn't just a ghost stalking us forever but a sculptor shaping every contour of what draws us in. A reflection that never leaves. It shapes the way we crave, the way we give, the way we let ourselves be taken. And often it manifests itself again and again, and somehow like a moth to the flame we just can’t stop it.

Exactly.

And playing it out with strangers keeps that intrigue and darkness on the lust routine.

Someone who met you where you are emotionally, being able to activate it without their becoming another abuser is a tight trick.

That level of communication might seem overwhelming, but it's required, and has a prerequisite of deep trust.

Early boundary issues can format our lives, and being able resolve that honestly and deeply takes unfolding it to your partner I think. Knowing of the history of a CNC kink resolves that. Deep communication. Trust.

Your writing points this out over and over. All of THIS  is connected to all of THAT. Intimate and vulnerable. Instead of having to risk, then trust allows lust to be disclosure in emotional nakedness.

I find your work courageous and vulnerable....a quest and a relinquishment.  That taps into the universal....sexy spirituality. A reminder to breathe.

We could continue this probably indefinitely, after all there is a lot of ground to cover emotionally, physically, psychologically. I am surprised you even know the CNC kink but it is written into my words often without saying it. Early boundary issues, or removal of boundaries has a profound affect on someone forever.

I'm sure we're all full of surprises.

Striking are the words which dwell upon the soul.

So heavy must be the poetry words upon your shoulders. It's ok to feel the breath and breeze upon your neck. Never forget you are very much adored in these shores. There is hope in every island, and yes, it only takes one fucking match to burn it all down.

So true, so many things dwell on and in my soul. It's hard to express things in words that never should be said out loud. And so you don't say them because some things are just meant to stay buried. Yet they continue to weigh heavy on your shoulders and always will. Still, the breath and breeze on my neck makes me tingle and the passion and lust knows no boundaries.    
   
And to be adored, still means the world somehow. But I fear that I am the match burning it all down because some things just never stop burning.

This has a sad kinda love, but it's something that a lover would appreciate reading. It could be why so many relationships are walked away from without reason. We mean obvious reasons, the reason maybe buried so deep. To know the reason maybe considered a break through, the striking of a match. Tight

There is a sad kinda love to it yes, and I am glad you feel that a lover would appreciate reading it. So many reasons are buried deep and so they may never be known. So often matches are left unstruck or they burn for the wrong reasons. I always love your insight. Perhaps striking a match and burning can be a breakthrough rather than just being volatile and destructive. And I love getting a 'tight' :)

Some day someone will 🌼

You always have a beautiful way with words Aj. You say so much with so few. Often people say a lot of words while actually not saying much at all. This kind of quiet love and wisdom that just shows through your poems and words. Often I think you don't realize how special that is because you say things that sometimes make me sad. So I guess I just figured I would say that. :)

Never meant to make you sad, sweet one. Just always tried to be the kind of friend a friend would like to have. You have enough crazy in your world and I'm just a simple man who hopes one day you'll find your heart's dream 🌼

And you are. And I just want you to find your heart's dream too. :) Unless you have and then you better tell me about it damnit.

I thought I had not so long ago...sometimes I still feel like I did. Water under the bridge, but I still have hopes for you 🌼

Don't lose hope and give up. Often it's when we least expect it that we find what we are looking for. Sometimes a bridge does not take us there and perhaps getting swept away by the water will... If you don't drown. :)

🌼❤

This might be my favourite thing you've ever posted here. So gorgeously vulnerable. The opening lines made me stop in my tracks. Just, wow.

Matches aren't just heat and destruction, they're also light. Your beauty runs so deep, KX, I hope you know that. You deserve someone who can see you. Keep shining.
❤️❤️k

That really makes me smile and I needed a smile right now. I love that I was able to connect with you on this one. That you felt it and getting a wow just makes me feel good.

Yes, matches are good for light and warmth too, so long as you don't get too close. :) But then I always just seem to need to burn. I love that you see beauty which runs deep because I need to feel like I am more than just superficial beauty and your comment makes me feel like that. I appreciate it more than you know.

Absolutely awesome read as alwayeI hope alls good across the pond
Love and light beautiful lady
Ron xx

Hey Ron, you always bring the love and light and that's so special; thank you. I love that you felt it was awesome and I hope that all is well with you across the pond too. Thank you so much for your continued encouragement and support.

Very passionate. I will miss you when the site goes, friend. It's always a joy to read your work.

You know me DC, always very passionate. I will miss you too but I did create an account on starsrite so you can find me over there. :) It's always been a joy to read yours as well. Your style and passion always shows through. I am so sorry I haven't been able to read and comment for so long. My life has been so complicated but I hope I can before the site closes. But please don't lose touch. :)

starsrite????

I have so much identity in your writing Kx....
DUP was a blessing to have found you.
It's hard for me to read of your plight but alas I hope I bring you light ....
Hey that rhymes
I rarely do that  
This is not a BIG LIKE subject matter but it is BIG....
I always wish you grace....
X

RL AWARD  

Hey PS, I know you feel and can identify I think. I am so glad that you did find me and we shared so much here. As far as my plight, I have always been meant for volatility and drama from the beginning it seems. Perhaps I even need it now because peace just feels like anxiety. But anyway, I love getting a BIG. haha... yes my mind goes straight to the gutter as usual. ;) Ah, work wants my butt right now but what else is new. Catch you later. ;)

I like that you said  "catch you later"
It stuck me as something intimate....
I like that

Intimate might be my only setting.

Another great piece

Hey James, so nice to hear from you. I really appreciate that you connected with me and this piece. Thanks you so much for giving me your feedback.

Your poems resonate with me.
You really get to it without wasting words.
I would buy a book of your poems. If you have one please send me a link.
Regards James

James… wow. I’m honestly a little stunned. I’ve always thought of my writing as strange - like fragments of myself that maybe only made sense to me. Messy little pieces I never expected anyone else to truly feel, especially with how much obscurity lingers in them… so much that even I’ve wondered if anyone could ever really see the intense pain and passion buried between the lines.

So reading your message - that it resonated with you - it means more than I can put into words. Thank you for truly feeling me through my writing.

Dug the sincerity in this, mixed with a range of emotions, it tugs at the heart and pulls the reader in.

The DUP journey has been a great one, from the very first poem you posted to the most recent work you’ve been sharing, you keep mesmerizing us all.

Excellent work K.

So many emotions...  but I love pulling you in so you are here with me Wally. This DUP journey has been an interesting one for sure and I hate that it's coming to an end. You were there as the first comment for me with encouragement and that really helped me to open up and share more especially since I never thought I would actually post anything. "you keep mesmerizing us all", that means more to me than you can ever know. My writing comes from deep within. Thank you so much for everything.