Preparing my thoughts

From the deepness of my own heart ❤️ where is so much hurt and pain, from the past four years of dealing with this disease of cancer. JUST eating away at my kidney and bladder, internally that I need to live to just survive. THAT it has been affecting my mind and my own chain of my own thoughts. YET I still can hear as I remember when the kidney and bladder, doctor told me what type of treatment, I would might need to have dialysis treatment or liver replacement eventually. But yet it's the very main reason, why I still continue to stand and fight with the cancer of stages in lung cancer, which has become the enemy from within. AS I tolerate the deepness of the truth how much more, I will have to go through as my silent tears are not, my sign of my weakness. For sure they became my strength of my will to live, with thoughts on a positive level of energy and determination and strength and perseverance. 🪬 SHAMAN 🪬