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Autumn Of My Life
I wore the watch you gave me, today
(I know what you're doing)
I picked an appropriate shirt
and pleated slacks
and nice shoes
I used my left hand to reach for everything
at every store, and to pay, and to get the change
My sleeve sliding up; The watch is elegant
I tried to not talk much
so I could seem eloquent
at least by appearance
As well as leaving the sleeves
just low enough
to hide my tattoos
And I understand, now
what you see in me
Besides the jeans
with the blown out knees
And the ball cap, advertising
my favorite whiskey
And any t-shirt, with
or without seed burns...
You see the potential
of me wearing
the best of my words
When I got home
I placed the watch down
with your Florida jewelry
I pulled the stem, and stopped the time
because what does time matter to me
when you're so far away
~
I am in the Autumn of my life
My writing has become leafless trees
Sometimes I throw my words down
and they look like scrawny bones
I stare at them
looking for a pattern
to show me a clearer future
(Impatient, I am, yet that's a secret)
But I'm no witch nor wizard
Voodoo doesn't work for me
Yet I'd take it on faith
since fate is dragging it's ass
in spite of us
~
When you told me about the snow
there in Texas (Hurry here, it just rains)
I was here watching the raindrops
sacrifice themselves off of the porch roof
They created a thousand images
of miniature skies
when they landed
during this grey day
A freeze is forecasted
and then there will be a thousand pieces
of broken glass
A sharp reality; I'm alone
And a thousand times
an airplane will be reflected
as it crosses that path
yet so far overhead
I won't see the faces within it
eager, waiting to land
I know you're not on that flight
So it's just another blinking star
ignoring my wishes
~
I am in the Autumn of my life
(You should hurry)
I listen to the raindrops die
as they hit the pavement
Slower, as they fall fewer
Like a battery dying in a watch
The ticking spreading out
like the distance between us
Temporary, but deafening
The thump of a heart
is no different
So I close my chest
within my nicest shirt
that you got for me
~
Tomorrow, I will shop
for random things
Random reasons to wear the watch
I will push in the stem
and hope, and wish, and pray
that the rapidness of the seconds
will rush you to me
once again
This Autumn, of my life;
Winter is pulling at me
It's a bitter, selfish whore
I crave the sun, and heat
and more time with you
So I stack my fallen words
into a pyre
for you to find me
during my desperate ritual
of substitute warmth
But the purpose is bright;
I miss you, my starla
And I miss the man
that you see in me.
~~~
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