Silent Battles

I don't want to battle with myself today,
with harsh emotions tangled within.
Disappointment in my eyes,
disasters in my mind,
the light at the end of the tunnel always dim.
 
I don't want to battle with myself today,
my darkness may win.
The echoes of doubt grow louder,
pulling me to a place I've already been.
 
I’ve wrestled with shadows, fought to stand,
weary day's start to cave.
If I let go, will silence greet me,
or will I drown beneath the waves?
 
I don't want to battle with myself today,
the war rages within.
Every promise I made to heal
feels like a lie beneath my skin.
 
The weight of ghosts I cannot shake,
pointless emotions creeping through my chest.
Memories cut like dull knives,
never letting me find rest.
 
I don't want to battle with myself today,
but surrender feels like sin.
If I close my eyes just for a while,
will the morning let me in?