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     Despite all the turmoil and despair in the world right now, I’m glad I got DU. It’s my comfort zone, where I get to visit my fellow poets/poetesses. When I first got here a lot of the members said, “Welcome to this dysfunctional family.”
 
      I haven’t seen much dysfunction, really. I’ve seen creative people being creative, and supportive of each other. Is there family drama? I would say yes, you can’t put this many creative and talented people together and not have friction from time to time.
 
      I’ve kinda made it a priority of getting to know the writers, behind the writes. It takes time, but it’s worth it. So many great people here, supportive souls, sharing stories, battles scars, and everything else in between. You’re my creative family.
 
      I’m slowly sharing my life story with you, that wasn’t always easy for me. I do it through poetry, and prose. I do it through stories, and musical history. I’ve came a long way in this journey. My flaws and mistakes in life, made me who I am today. I’m human, not perfect.
 
      Without J.J. Burton, I’m not a lyricist/poet/writer, and all the other creative hats I’ve worn from time to time. I’m not writing this story, without him being the first to believe in me. He co-founded, DeadLove with me. Wrote my first song and others with him.  
 
      My brother, Garrett has always looked up to me for some reason. As an older brother I wasn’t always fair to him. If you have siblings, you probably know what I’m talking about.  
 
      Anyhow, he’s a talented multi-instrumentalist. He can play drums, guitar, and bass. Like J.J. he’s a DeadLove co-founder. One of my best friends in this world.
 
      Both these guys had their careers with and without me. Both went farther than me in the music profession. I fulfilled my purpose in their creative career, I wasn’t meant to go every step of their journey with them. Yet, I’m part of their journey, just as their part of mine.
 
      Even, Joey Graves. That’s a made up name for the sake of the story, folks. He’s my former songwriting partner, I had the falling out with. It's easier to make up a name, because he’s always gonna be a reoccurring person in my stories.  
 
      Joey, was a member in DeadLove’s second line up. Minus J.J. they’ve never met folks. But both believed in me, both played a role in my journey.  
 
      After I stopped trying to be in a band, I was behind the scenes and writing songs in Garrett & Joey’s new band. After that it was songwriting with Joey G.  
 
      I don’t hate the guy, I’m disappointed in him. And he’s bad for my mental health on top of all that. But, I respect his talent and his gifts, he’s a great songwriter. Through, the grapevine I know he’s playing again. He even did a show. I hope he succeeds, and finds happiness. I do.
 
      I learned a lot from him, about music and songwriting, working in the studio. It wasn’t all bad until it was. I’m pissed at him, I believed in him once. Until he became bitter.
 
      Here’s the skinny, folks. I mentioned these guys because all of them played a role in my life and creativity. I believe people enter my orbit when the time is right.
 
      It took 30 years and change to write this last chapter. I do know I’m past the halfway point in my story. My journey continues moving forward though. Then I had to recover from my hard living ways.
 
      To be honest with all of you, this most updated version of me, is the best version I’ve ever been. I think all of you are part of the reason for that.
 
        
            
Written by DamianDeadLove (Damian DeadLove)
Published | Edited 3rd Feb 2025
Author's Note
Late night musing. I'm grateful for this second chance in my creative journey. With some really wonderful people that inspire me, I might add. Appreciate you.

- Damian DeadLove

" Now it won't be long
Till the voice of truth has it's say
And it won't be long
Till everything that's owed is all repaid."

- John Corabi
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