What happened?

I'm not telling the truth -
I'll lie til i die. I'm ok!
I can deal with it.
The truth never happened.

The truth lurks close...
but I'll grab that fucking truth...
and strangled it and bury it!
I don't want you around truth!!!

The lie grins - knowing we are...
crafting a story to decieve.
I'll walk with Satan...
...come what may.

Whispers of non-believers...
FUCK THEM!
You can't unmask my lie!
The truth is done! It's dead!

Standing firm!!!  I have my reasons...
My reasons. The lie reigns supreme!
I said "MY FUCKING REASONS!"
It's NOT your life!

It's my life.  Be clear on that!
Right or wrong! I am the protector.
They question...I scream, "Whatever!"
They give up!  The truth has died.

I'm used to this
I lie all the time about it.
I can look at my...battered reflection!
It's a reflection of my soul...

I stand firm...they let him go...
It's a daily struggle, but...
this is my frigging life.
My kids needed Christmas!